Friday, October 26, 2012

Teach Me to Teach

In high school my friends would always tell me that I should be a "Home Economics" teacher.  Hearing the people I love tell me that I should be a teacher, kind of hurt me at the time.  I thought to myself "do you people think that the highest thing I can aspire to be is a teacher?".

I came up to Utah State with grand intentions of completing my prerequisite classes for a Dental Hygiene program.  As I began taking Human Physiology I could tell that no matter how much I had loved my internship at a Dental office and how much I looked forward to having a professional career, there was absolutely no way I would be able to suffer through so many classes that I didn't enjoy and often made my stomach do somersaults.  I decided that Dental Hygiene wasn't for me and suffered through my first semester of college taking classes that I didn't enjoy.

A couple semesters went by and I had no clue what I might want to do with the rest of my life.  As I sat in my Dress and Humanities class I realized just how much I loved my home economics classes and how many of my favorite sewing, cooking, child development, ect. teachers truly had made a difference in my life.  I decided one winter morning that I too wanted to make a difference in the lives of teenagers.  I always knew that I wanted to help people and being a teacher seemed like the perfect way to inspire and mold young minds.

I aspire to be a teacher!  I am so excited to be able to be in a classroom and make a difference in lives.  I hope not only to be a respected teacher and authority figure but to be someone that my students can trust and confide in.  I hope to do for my students, what my teachers did for me.

And thus I complete my assignment for Tech Tools for Teachers

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Taken Aback- Part 4

To this day I still don't know if A.B. looked over his shoulder as he walked into the business building, I was much too determined to keep my eyes focused on the dorms ahead of me and now that it's been close to a year ago I find it hard to care.  I can't believe a whole year has passed since the two of us came in contact with each other; a lot has happened since then.  There is a large part of me that wishes I could travel back to the time when I typed out my first reply and yell at myself not to hit the seemingly innocent enter button.  The other part of me, the reasonable part, is so grateful that and blessed because of that one moment.

A.B. was in class and I was home in my apartment, laying on my bed exhausted, reviewing the awkward situation that had just happened.  Before meeting A, I had told myself that if he didn't like me one we met that it would be okay.  To me it seemed that A.B. didn't like me, and I definitely was not okay with it!  I had begun to like his personality and after seeing him in person I knew I was attracted to him.  But don't worry, I had just blown any opportunity that I might have had with him.

He must have been bored, or maybe I had made a better impression then I thought, but as my phone vibrated and I saw that it was from A.B. my spirits lifted.  He didn't say "it was good to meet you" or anything of that nature, but instead he commented on how boring his class was.  We chatted the night away  about silly unimportant things and there was no need to worry about the encounter earlier that day.

Not long after we met, maybe a couple days, A.B. randomly called me.  I answered the phone with a little hesitancy.  It was obvious that he was slightly out of his comfort zone but we managed some small talk and then he asked!  "Kelsey, are you doing anything this Saturday?"  Well I was planning on washing my hair, doing some homework and painting my nails.  Even if I had been doing something I would have gladly canceled my plans to go on a date with A.  I casually play things off not wanting to seem overeager but I gladly accept his offer.  A.B. and I will be going out on Saturday for ice cream!  I hang up the phone and all that I have left to do is patiently wait.

Thursday, March 8, 2012

It's Raining Men: Part 1- Pity Party

Sometimes I am compelled to sit down and write about what is going on in my life; right now is definitely one of those moments!  Is it possible for life to be so crazy, stressful and wonderful as my life is right now? Well obviously if it's happening in my life then it is possible.  And so we begin.

Back in January I remember having a really rough day.  It was a Sunday and while the day had been great everything in my life decided to blow up around 9pm.  I'm not going to keep it a secret that I had been a little depressed that there didn't seem to be any guys that were interested in dating me.  Each night I prayed that one day I would have opportunities to meet new guys and that I was 100% willing to wait on the Lord for him to prepare me in due time.  I knew that through my faith and willingness to turn my life over to him that I would be blessed.  Nightly I would tell the Lord that my life was in his hands and that I would go and be willing to do whatever he needed me to do.

That night in January I broke down.  Someone had made the comment that people know not to cross me and almost implied that people were scared of me.  I was hurt.  Silently sitting on my bed with tear stained cheeks I poured my heart into my journal.

January 29, 2012: I'm not feeling very good about myself, i'm gaining weight and have been feeling a lack of spirituality in my life.  I have no self control when it comes to eating, I can't seem to tell myself no.  I always find myself trying to make a commitment to eat healthy or to stop eating until dinner but then I break my commitment.  I'm very frustrated and disgusted with myself.  I understand that my weight doesn't determine my happiness, because i'm always happy, in a general sense.  Maybe life is just hard."

"No one is interested in ME, and while i'm okay being single it would be nice to get asked out of to have someone come over to visit.  Last night I realized that people are scared of me... In a way.  My roommate made some comment about how people should know not to cross me or make me angry.  It kind of hurt.  I feel that people in Pine View don't know the side of me that would do anything for someone, instead people always seem to see me as being blunt, honest and maybe even a little rude.  I don't mean to be that way."

"I know deep in my heart that one day a guy will value those qualities, but i'm worried it will be later rather  then sooner.  I really do want to get married... eventually; when the time is right."

Oh, poor Kelsey!  What a pitiful rant!

Monday, January 2, 2012

100 Things

Here is list of 72 thing I would like to do sometime in my life.  I made this list quite a while ago so i've managed to complete a few of them, but I hope to get the list to 100 things before my birthday in May.  They aren't in any specific order but I hope to cross off as many as I can within the next couple years. 

1. Take a road trip with just my closest friends
2. Dance on top of a bar
3. See a Broadway musical on Broadway
4. Dye my hair... with permanent dye August 22, 2011-- with Morgan Dorcheus 
5. Get a 4.0
6. Jump off a waterfall
7. Run a half marathon
8. Bake and decorate a wedding cake August 5,2011 Caisa and Garrett Shoop
Not exactly the cutest but it was my first wedding cake and I had never practiced before.  What really matters is that the Bride and Groom loved it. 
9. Start my own business
10. Visit the Sacred Grove
11. Find the perfect cupcake recipe
12. Throw a surprise birthday party
13. Get married
14. Pull an all night study session
2 am and feeling fine!
Attempt number 1 November 21-22, 2011. 
Writing a ten page paper for English 2010 due at noon on the 22nd. I laid down on the couch at 3:00, fell asleep around 3:30 and the alarm went off at 6.
15. Visit every continent (minus Antarctica)
16. Graduate college with a BS
17. Cook Italian food in Italy
18. Kiss in the rain
19. Drive a convertible
20. Bake a souffle 
21. Be a bridesmaid 
22. Bake a killer Thanksgiving dinner
23. Design a wedding dress
24. See Big Ben
25. Stay in bed all day long on a day i'm not sick
26. Read the Book of Mormon in one month
27. Finally complete Pride and Prejudice
28. Do humanitarian work in another country
29. Build a blanket fort and watch General Conference in it
30. Have a water fight in the middle of the house
31. Ride in a horse drawn sleigh
32. Make someones bridal bouquet 
33. Get in a flour fight while baking
34. Go streaking (probably won't happen... EVER)
35. Hit the slots 
36. Shake an apostles hand
37. Go skinny dipping High School-- Torie Barlow's Pool 
38. Get proposed to by a drunk guy... or girl. 
39. Design another stage costume
40. Fall in love
41. Naked Saturday... or Sunday?
42. Buy a designer handbag. 

July 29, 2011 Juicy Couture 
43. Own a pair of designer shoes
44. Watch the sunrise with someone I love
45. Host a formal dinner party
46. Have a romantic winter campfire up the canyon 
47. Give birth to a watermelon sized object (child)
48. Read 12 books in a year
49. Get a Master's Degree just for the heck of it
50. Marry the love of my life... or at least someone I think is kind of alright ;)
51. Buy a house
52. Kiss a stranger
53. Teach someone to read
54. Sleep under the stars
55. Anonymously give a large amount of money to a charity
56. Participate in the Festival of colors
57. Lose a desired amount of weight on purpose
58. Play matchmaker 
59. Knit a rad awesome scarf and give it away
60. Be a vegetarian for a month
61. Go without sweets for a month
62. Give blood
63. Host a costume party and dress up as something fabulous 
64. Spend Christmas doing work for charity
65. Make my own pasta
66. Buy lunch for a homeless person
67. Leave a love note on someones windshield 
68. Send flowers to someone just because I can
69. Go to the Ballet
70. Listen to every song on my iPod without pressing skip
71. Leave a letter for myself in a library book and look for it in 10 years

As of this moment I can't think of any more but you better believe that I will post them when I do. 

72. Participate in Black Friday for my Aunt Vickie
Thanksgiving 2011
Jason and I went out and did some Black Friday shopping this year. Walmart started their sales at 10pm on Thanksgiving so that was our first stop.  We decided to conquer and defeat!  I went to the movies and Jason stayed at the video games.  It was crazy!  People pushing, grabbing and bodies packed together like sardines.  In the end I came out victorious and Jason did not.  I managed to get 15 good movies!

What are some things that are on your bucket list?

Thursday, December 29, 2011

Taken Aback- Part 3

Oh that Abercrombie polo!  Little did he know, that very polo would melt my heart and eventually give me butterflies.  He knew how to dress!  I had only seen him in person once but I knew that I had finally met someone who cared about wearing nice things just as much as I did.

As A.B. walked toward me confidently knowing that he looked good I gave a little wave of the hand to say hello and asked him how he was doing.  His eyes were brilliant blue, the kind of blue that makes your heart skip a beat but magically calm you as well, and his smile was slightly crooked to the left just like mine.  There was no need to confirm that we were both A and K, we knew.  We'd been texting for days and I'm positive there had been sufficient Facebook stalking.  

We chatted for a couple minutes and I teased him for wearing a green shirt.  We were matching and it was an odd coincidence, and it was kind of cute.  He had class on the other side of campus in a couple of minutes and I needed to go that direction so I offered to walk with him.

That walk from the TSC to South campus was incredibly awkward!  We talked about meaningless things like how he didn't enjoy going to class and I awkwardly interjected in the silences.  Oh it was so obvious that him and I weren't clicking!  My heart deflated with each passing minute.  I was out of my element and who knows where he was?  Did he even notice how awkward I was being?

As we got closer to our parting destination we both offered a quick goodbye.  There was no hug, no "it was nice to meet you" and no reason to think I had left a good impression.  As I walked past him back to my apartment all I wanted to do was glance back over my shoulder!  What if we had one of those moments like in the movies where each person looks over their shoulder, they make eye contact and know there is a connection?  I kept my eyes pointed in the direction of my apartment but did A.B.?  Did he look over his shoulder as I walked away?  

Thursday, December 8, 2011

Taken Aback- Part 2

A few more days pass since the stitches incident with us constantly texting each other and Walk a Mile is here and I'm stressed out beyond belief!  I've worked hard to make sure this event is a success and i'm worried that it won't turn out the way everyone has hoped.  To top things off i'm worried about meeting A.B. for the first time.  Will he think i'm cute?  Will he want to get to know me?  I might want to date him.  Oh goodness I think i'm going to puke i'm so worried.  I woke up at five that morning, put on the not-so-attracitve shirt that was made for the event and did my makeup and hair extra cute to make up for the less than attractive t-shirt. 

Things are going well and it looks like this years Walk-a-Mile is going to be a success!  I've been promoting our new campaign "Can I Kiss You" all day and my enthusiasm is running low.  I plaster a smile on my face and tell myself to "suck it up", after all i'm finally going to have the chance to meet this mystery boy who I have been talking to non stop for days.  When will he get here?

The event is soon coming to a close and A.B. and I haven't been able to meet up.  He said that he'd been through the TSC once already but the halls were too crowded to come stop by.  I had been too busy promoting our new campaign anyway; it was best that he hadn't distracted me.  Our texts back and forth convey that we really want to see each other and i'm getting frustrated that he isn't taking any initiative.  Finally I text him explaining that I've been working all day long and that it's not mandatory that I stay until everything has been cleaned up.  He replies that he will see me soon and as I realize that i'm finally going to be able to talk with A.B. in person my heart starts to race, i'm nervous and excited all at the same time!  As we clean off tables and pack up posters I make sure to check over my shoulder every couple minutes.  Every few minutes there is a quick glance up and down the hall but no sight of A.B.  Goodness, I want to meet this boy!  I've gotten to know quite a bit about him and he seems like a wonderful person.  He's charming, whitty, driven and from the pictures i've seen on Facebook he's pretty cute.

Almost everything has been put away and i'm getting worried that I'll be long gone by the time he gets to the TSC.  I help take back the last table and as i'm walking back to my backpack and jacket I look up to a sight that makes me smile.  Walking towards me in a green Abercrombie polo is A.B.

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Taken Aback- Part 1

When I started blogging again I said that I wanted to write many of the stories that I have, the good, the bad and the ugly.  Well my dear friends I don't go back on my promises.  This is part one to a very important, trying and wonderful portion on my life.

If you know me personally please don't ask questions the next time you see me.  There are reasons why I haven't told you about everything that goes on in my life... probably because I don't tell anyone about all that goes on in my life.  If you want to know more you can sit patiently and wait for me to finish my story. 

Let us begin!

Way, way back in March I happened to meet a really great guy!  I can't exactly say that we met each other back in March because we actually didn't meet each other face to face until mid April.  One would probably say that we originally got in contact with each other; oh the things that social media can do for a person!

We started chatting with each other and we had both mastered the art of flirting.  As we continued to get to know each other that first night we realized that we were both from the same hometown, both studying at USU and longed to travel the world.  It was apparent that we had a little bit in common, enjoyed talking with each other and maybe, just maybe wanted to continue to get to know one another.  That first night we chatted for a couple hours and in that short amount of time he felt the need to propose to me.  I wondered to myself who does this boy think he is?  We bantered back and forth until he managed to get me to say "yes".  We were pretend engaged and we had never met or talked to each other before!

I feel at this time that I must clarify that we didn't come in contact through lds single or, but by other forms of social networking (think Facebook). 

For days we spend all our time texting.  My mornings would start with either a text from him saying "good morning" or started with me saying "sorry I fell asleep last night".  There was quite a bit of time devoted between two people who had never met but we had clicked so quickly that I never thought anything of it.  After a week or so he mentioned that maybe we should get around to meeting each other and possibly go on a date.  I was a little worried but he seemed like a nice guy.  However, I thought that it might be nice for him to actually meet me in person before we decided to do something together.  I told him that on April 13 I would be in the TSC all day long volunteering with SAAVI at our annual Walk a Mile in Her Shoes event.  Since I was going to be there all day it would be a great chance for him to stop by.  Secretly I was thinking that if we didn't get along that it would be easy to come up with an excuse to look busy and we would both go on our merry way. 

I had sufficiently Facebook stalked him so I was sure to recognize him when we met!  One night a couple days before the event my roommate and I were at the HPER waiting for our ZUMBA class to start.  I was wearing a ratty old t-shirt, spandex capris and my hair was in a nasty ponytail.  I was talking with a couple friends when out of the corner of my eye I see two guys pass.  For a split second I think nothing of it until things click and I realize that the guy I have been texting non stop for a couple days just walked by!  What?  He just passed me and I didn't go say anything or introduce myself?  What am I thinking?  My thoughts are frantic and I turn to my roommate Angel and exclaim "That was A.B.! He just passed by and I didn't go say hi".  After a little discussion we agreed that meeting a cute guy in my ratty t-shirt was probably not the best of ideas. 

Once I was done with ZUMBA I sent him a simple text telling him that I had completed one of the hardest workouts of my life.  I didn't receive a reply for quite some time and became a little impatient but I figured that he was still at the HPER playing soccer.  After an hour or two I get a text replying that he just got home from the hospital.  I was so sure that he had been playing soccer, why in the world did he have to go to the hospital?  Typing as fast as I can I reply: What did you break?!?  It turns out that the kid got hit in the head and needed stitches.  Go figure!  There was no mention of my workout and our conversation focused on him, his game and the row of stitches he had in his forehead.